Life is Beautiful

Teenage Love – The most beautiful and charismatic experience...immaturity is a part of this package deal. Very few teenage love stories are successful. In most of the cases, it ends up in a break up as soon as we go to a next level of our life. Something similar happened to me too.

I was very upset. I had just had a break up with my guy. We had a huge spat for one and a half hours. Most of the time during this spat, I was crying, begging him not to end the relationship or leave me; but he was adamant on having a break up right away. As a kid, I was always told by my parents that you should never end a relationship due to petty reasons as it is too precious to be lost. And I was witnessing it today. The person I really loved was leaving me. I kept asking him the reason for his such an extreme step. his reply was:

Ria, we are two different people and I can’t see any future with you.

I was shattered and didn’t know what to do. I had been noticing for few days that he was staying aloof and avoiding me quite a few times; but just to avoid this particular situation, I kept ignoring his behavior. The reason was very selfish - till now I was enjoying all the attention I was getting; the feeling of being loved in a different way, going out on dates, talking on phones for hours, that tickling sensation in stomach just by the mention of his name, receiving and giving gifts, surprises etc. etc.

Suddenly I saw everything changing. It was as if my beautiful world was coming to an end. I didn’t want all those things to end ever; for that I was even ignoring the differences between us. But finally, the truth was here. And after I saw that I had lost it all, my helplessness took form of anger and I just walked out of that room.

With a lot of anger visible on my face, bloodshot and puffy eyes and few rude remarks to couple of concerned friends, I rushed to Marine Drive. I went there and sat and again started crying; not bothering about people staring at me, I just kept crying and cursing everything and everyone. I cursed myself, him, the day I met him, the time we spent together, our common friends, every damn thing.

After few minutes which I felt like eternity, I found a hand on my shoulder. The grip was so gentle that I couldn’t bring myself to push it away. It was a kind of comfort I was longing for at that moment. Slowly I turned around. A guy was standing there with curious expressions and concern for me in his eyes. He sat next to me and asked me what was wrong. I had so much stored within me that I just burst out and told him everything. He wasn’t a complete stranger; he was my batch mate, but not associated with my group or any of the common friends circle with my ex - I should call him now.

I spoke and cried and cursed for quite some time. How could that guy leave me just like that; how could he just take the decision alone and break all the ties; what did I do to deserve such a treatment from anybody.

And then I suddenly realized that I was talking to him for the first time and felt very embarrassed. He realized that and comforted me saying that whatever I was doing was very natural and can happen to anyone. We sat there quietly for some time, then he started talking.

He told me that whatever happened to me, I didn’t deserve any of it. But just because I didn’t deserve it, it doesn’t mean I can bind someone in a relationship one doesn’t want. He suddenly asked me to check the time. I said it was 7:10 pm. Then he asked me what time I came here? I said it was around an hour back, round about 6 o’clock or so. So he told me one very important thing, something that changed my life...

He said that all this while I was crying and upset, I failed to notice one thing – the beauty of Marine Drive at the time of sunset...

This happens with most of us. We are always so busy crying about other things that we fail to notice the positivity around us which can help us to overcome our problems. The whole world is beautiful. Our life is part of this world; so by changing our own point of view about things, we can solve all our problems.
A Story by Neha who blogs at Neha's blog

comment 4 comments:

Vidhu .. !! on September 15, 2010 at 2:20 PM said...

yes - man and his selfish existence ! we need to think more than our petty little selves ! agreed :)

Bikramjit on September 15, 2010 at 3:46 PM said...

WOWO Neha You gave me a Lesson here TODAY.. THANKS ....

Time to change my View point Thank you so much...

Neha said...

@ Vidhu, thanks for the comment n gtalk ping after reading this :)

@ Bikram, thanks for the comment and e-mail you sent me after reading this :)

sushobhan roy on September 26, 2010 at 6:14 PM said...

Wonderful message Neha!...:)

Enjoyed reading it.. :)

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